I hate wet water

Ahh yes wet water nothing like it. I can still vivedly remember the day that it happened. We were in Utica at a track meet. Jay G, Amy F, and Matt K, were all sitting and stretching when Amy says "I hate wet water" I never see water the same anymore expecially after it rains which it is doing here for the first time ever.

I got some really good news, I might not live on campus next year, and I am so very happy. My friend BJ told us about this house 3 bedrooms and full basement so we can get atleast 4 people in it is open for rent next year. The best part is that is a very decent house for only 525 a month. It would be around 130 dollars a person + all the other crap. I would only be there for 4 months but it would beat living in the doorms for 4 months. I really hope we get this place, I would have people around me I like plus it would get me off campus and away from people who I don't like and the living environment.

Through my Eyes

Its almost official. The biggest obsticale to me going to Indiana is now completed which was getting that extra 4000 dollars refund check. So now I am really excited to go to Indiana to visit Phil and just get away from my life here for a while. I need to talk with Phil about the details of the trip and when the best times for me to come are and leave. I am planning on leaving on Monday because my friends birthday is on Saturday and he has asked me to go out with him. But when I leave is up in the air and whatever works best to accommidate Phil. I have talked it over with my family and we have agreed that it would be best for me to fly to Indiana. I can't wait to come up to Indiana something that I have wanted to do my whole college career and yet to do it.

Major Accent Highlighter

So this weekend has been maybe the worst weekened of my entire school career. I have never ever done this much homework and not got done with half of it. I came into this weekend having 2 tests, 2 papers (one being 20 pages), and a facility project all to be completed by monday and tuesday. I woke up Saturday at noon and begun working on my facility project. I continued this until 11 o'clock at night where I finally stopped and worked some on other homework. I went to bed at 1 am. I then woke up Sunday at noon thirty ahaha none thirty, and begun working on this same project again until 12 am again. Yes I put over 20 hours into one project this weekend and did not go to bed till 2:30 am after I finished my paper. I have yet to study for my monday test or tuesday test or start my 20 page paper that is due on Tuesday. I might say that I am so tired that I can hardly concentrate and feel that sleep tonight might not happen.

I Suck at the game of Life

Yes it is official I suck at the board game life. A group of friends played last night and I got dead last and was not a millionaire. I started off well we having a good job making some really good money (80,000 for a teacher). But of course I had a midlife crisis and lost my nice career.

I am trying to look at the good since Nancy. I found out that I have some really good friends who I never spent anytime with. I really hate myself for that because I have had so much fun since Nancy ruined our relationship. I am more active with my friends and spend more time doing things now.

Life on the outside

Well its over after 16 months its over. I don't really have the words but I have a lot of built up anger over this whole ordeal. At first when it happened things were fine and we were able to hang out and talk. But as the days go by I am really starting to get very upset every time I see her and developing almost a hatred for her. Which is not something that I want because I am still crazy about her and in love with her. I tried everything to keep us a couple but that wasn't enough for her. I go and sit in her room and just sit there and don't say anything because I am so angry with everything. I don't know what to do but I have this desire to just go find someone she doesn't like and just make out with them just because. But I know thats not what I want and would be doing it out of spite. I am really confused with my life now and its not a time where I can really worry about that. I have way to much on my plate the way it is and now this might just send me over the edge.

I was talking with my friend Lizzie who is a really amazing person and makes me laugh. We were talking about this and kind of both are in the same situation. But here is a short transcript of what we said kinda funny :).

Me: So Lizzie how was your Christmas?
Lizzie: Well my boyfriend broke up with me at 4am in christmas then shit starting coming out of our sinks, drains, and toliots. Then 2 days later my grandma died.
Me: Oh

It kinda was funny and sad at the same time. Made be feel like my situation could have been worse I mean shit could have started coming out of my sink.

All Good Things Must Come to an End

A while back I said things are going really well with Nancy and we most likely would be considering marriage. Well things have not been going so well. It does not matter what happens anymore we are just not the same couple as we were which is very sad. We have talked about it a lot and tried a lot of different things just something is missing in our relationship that we need to get through everything. Some of it is we are both coming into that turning point in your life where you don't know where your headed but you are sure you're in different directions (we getting ready for my internship and Nancy getting ready to transfer to UMTC).

I don't know what to do anymore and have really stuggled as much as we seem to disagree on everything. But even now when we are in the middle stage I can't get her off my mind and cannot imagine being without her. She has meant so much to me as a friend and a girlfriend. Over the last 3 years we have become very close and we have done so much together. It makes me almost sick when I think about what it would be like to not be with her.

So I do not know what to do now. I know when we go back to school we are going to have the talk what we should do. I know she is more for seperating and working on our friendship again. I just want her and I to get back to the point in our relationship where we were both happy. But I just dont know what to do.

I am just confused and worried I guess.

Snow Turkey

This thanksgiving I went snowboarding at Vail. I had never been snowboarding at Vail and have always heard about Vail and how great it was. The only thing I found to be so great is the price of the place. Everything was expensive. But the mountain was really nice. It was beautiful weather and had some great scenery. Also the runs were nice. They weren't overly difficult though. I thought their blue's were very mild and not challenging enough. They were doing a lot of building there so things were kinda tore up so the village wasn't as nice. It was really cool to have ski in ski out condo though. It was really nice to spend some time with my family and see my aunt and uncle. It was a good time!